When I was approached by a friend, a mother to a beautiful three year old daughter to make a portrait of her baby, I was completely thrilled and excited with the idea. But at the same time I was at a point in my life as an artist, where I had started feeling that I had painted enough pictures in the style I was painting in and was kind of getting bored of that style. Something only interests me until and unless I am not able to achieve it. As soon as I achieve a particular thing, I want to move on to something new. I knew I wanted to create this portrait but I even knew that I did not want it to be the way I had painted the "Old lady portrait" or "The red boy" . But how exactly I wanted to go about that portrait then was still not too clear in my head.
I bought a brand new canvas for the painting, made the drawing of the little lass on the perfectly white, textured, primed surface of the canvas cloth and now was the time to start painting. My head wanted me to play it safe, go with the regular style or to be precise "Just stay in my comfort zone", where I exactly knew how the painting will finally end up looking. But that is not what me or my heart wanted to do. I finally made this firm decision to fight with my head, go with my heart and just enjoy the painting, without much thinking of the final outcome and just play with random colors that my heart desired.
It was not really an instant decision made by me, as I slept over it after just completing the drawing, for two days to finally be able to decide that, yes I wanted to challenge my artistic abilities and get out of my comfort zone of a particular painting style to try something new. It is a difficult thing to do, because when you are in your comfort zone, you know that everything will be perfect in the end and deciding to get out of it means that risking an important work which could end up into a messy painting if things dint go right.
Finally when I sat down to start painting, I decided to paint with a colorful palette in a patchwork style, the style usually suitable with the oil paints but considered a bit difficult with the very fast dryling acrylic paints. Challenging myself to work in an oil painting style using acrylic paints brought a lot of thrill and made me too too excited to work on this painting all the more. Ofcoarse I wasn't able to stick to that particular style for the whole painting till the end, tough I started with it, but I was so glad with the final results in the end that you can catch up with in the video below.
I am more then happy that I fought back my head and followed my heart who asked me to not to worry and just sing like a free bird. One lesson I for sure learnt from this artwork that I thoroughly enjoyed as well and will be a very crucial thing for me to grow as an artist is :- Keep Challenging myself and stop thinking TOO MUCH about the final outcomes. When you are enjoying doing something a lot, your enjoyment will eventually surely show up in the final outcome.
Shilpa / Artyshils
Original Drawing - " HOPE "